TopDog, aka Angel Baby
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Puddles of Gold
When down the rains begin to pour
Puddles of gold with tenderness loom
Inside the land of enfeeblement
Timeworn faces,in vintage clothes
Mateless,unpaired,finishing their time of woe
No balance have they,in silence they roam
Wandering streets to find there way home
Lost,cold and begotten, when down comes the sun
Unknowing what day, year or hour come
So happy they seem,though we dont know why
Stentorian,now comes my cry
To heed all impassive an unpledged ways
Unite lesser generations
Set forth, make right your days
For winter each year will come again
You will meet a unknown friend.
Meritoriuos before them stand
Make time to lend your hand
Copyright © 1999 by angelbaby,
Color of Me
what truly is the color i see
that distinctivly decribes of Me
not that Firery Red Glow,Never a possibilty
nor of that far out their ,from where Mans stories are told
Never would it be that,of what turrns Old
nor of that,which ripens and grows sour with the Sun
not like of the horizen,when the Day is done
not even of the growth,both high or low
not even displayed inside a Rainbow
No chance has that Darkness,from the depth of the Night
it shows closer,to the Brightest of Lights
also, it can not be just one
Forever these two Colors My Heart has won
Someday with them I will Fly across the Sun
since when as a Child i was touched by some.
© 1999,TopDog, aka Angel Baby.
To whom i bare my soul to,
deep as the rocks lie imbeded inside the clayed sand
before me stands a light of love that burns not dimmer
then the scourcing shine of the days sun
we follow as close as ones own line of blood,
flowing its way thru the path of life
so with you do i owe the same,
for you have asked of me,all of this
surly, i to will give the same
never could i crease your heart
i hold within my thoughts any chance,
even death to keep you from another
to let you feel covered and serve your heart,
as yours does mine
when for good i belong to,
an cling to you,
then will i draw from life,
reckonize they will ,
that what is with you is unlike,
where all others have been
© 1999,TopDog, aka Angel Baby
||IT IS TIME
I can not console this broken heart
my mind an soul have been torn apart
today, i have seen the life i did hold
and never again, will i let it unfold
i have to make a brand new start
it is now,that i must depart
it is time for the new life that i seek
one that holds all the beauty,of the bluest flowing creek
their i will form,from the weaskest of the meek
i shall dance between the rays of light
casted from the moonbeams, in the darkest part of the night
it’s time too make my flight
it includes being sad enough too cry
for this day, I have to say goodbye……..
© 1998,TopDog, aka Angel Baby.
The Wonder Of Love
I will tell you of this Wonder
that has casued My Soul to melt
even in the deepest of slumber
its presious warmth i felt
mysterious as the transition of darkness turning to light
as beautiful as the Setting Sun, early in the Night
caressing like the Swaying of the trees,
when calm winds blow
captivating, like a Full Moons illumiounious glow
engulfing like the waves, pounding upon the shore
magical,as the Nights shimering stars,perhaps even more
Endless is it’s time,like the Heavens above
for it is the Wonder,the Wonder of Love.
© 1998,TopDog, aka Angel Baby
For you,I will Float one single rose upon the Sea
then ask of every Angel,too attend to thee
Too the end of the earth,for you i would journey
no matter the distance come between you an me
Beside you,is where,i will always be
Forever, and for all of Eternity
Never will you question,you will clearly will see
How very special you are too me
I’d catch the only drop of lavender rain,within the palm of my hand
I would catch a bird, as it flys across the land
For me,these are not just dreams
It’s how i would show you,what your love truly means
© 1998,TopDog, aka Angel Baby.
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A hand of luck, a swollen forehead
Money in plenty, that’s what I remember he said
Labors of hard work, well taken care of
Happiness is bound to mount
I remember him mentioning so
You’ll even have more friends than foe
Swing with delight for fate is going to be good to you
But conditions galore, deeds need doing, more than a few
All this and more I remember him telling me. But if I let another
Determine my future, I obviously have eyes that cannot see.
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ABUSE NO MORE
Surrender destiny shall beckon
Retreat with fate you ought to reckon
Fight not for what doesn’t belong to you in the least
The demon in you is no different from the outside recurring beast
Make way for evil to step outside, give no more reason for
your good to hide inside.
Let it be a choice you don’t give yourself no matter what
This should be a lesson for you that’s self taught
Faith in heaven or faith in hell, faith being the point of talk
Ask your mind to sit still for a bit while your soul takes a free walk
Lies and promises, promises and lies, undo these strangling ties
The sun shines on you as much as it does on everyone else around
Don’t loose hope search on, eventually you too will be found.
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|Written For December 1999
COULD YOU I AM ASKING LOVE ME PLEASE
Colour my bliss with a passion of red and
In ecstasy of desire, drown me to be safe from blues.
Put me in waters deep and dark,
So I could be related to depth,
under which I want to sink
In tears out of laughter
Could you I am asking love me please?
Green shadows of trees could you help
in climb, being down where I am.
So I could know your high being
Down being down where I am.
Could you I am asking love me please?
I FEEL GOOD
Its sundown and it feels like the sunrise
The moon’s behind dark clouds and it feel’s as though the I am washed white
…. Silence prevails and the sound of music is ringing my streets
The stars have their own glint and all I see is a diamond filled sky
In my times of peace from within, the earth seems devoid of earthquakes…..
There mightn’t be love all around me but I can feel the emotions running better than ever…….
The flowers have closed bloom for the day, there’s the scent of them still lingering in my vicinity
Treasures have lost value in this world but I’ve now learnt to value before loss
And since I do I must say that I am feeling good today!! There are five of them.
|LET YOUR MIND WANDER
Grains of sand on gold surface, glow from the sun on earth so beautiful
….. Perfection embraced in moments of taciturnity;
There in lies a haven in my soul so invisible.
It takes my breath away, I get swayed by it’s everyday alteration and limitation.
It provokes me in those tested seconds and then takes on the chameleon form.
Why should the tender mind be such a culvert between life and the after….
|TEARS IN SOLITUDE
They just keep flowing
And I don’t know why I do
Smile along with my tears in solitude.
Sometimes it just breaks my heart
These tears in solitude.
I have often wondered what
a tear and a smile can do to me
during my tears in solitude.
But answers cease to come
Some day with me he’ll be
to share my precious
Tears in solitude.
Despair not for hope lives on
Beneath tragedy a happy ending awaits
Walk on the road does get shorter
patience a virtue now becomes the reward
Feel the depth of sadness, next to it, skin deep is your happiness
Life to live momentarily, tomorrow is a far sight
Complain to your creator, he has given you that option
LAST NOTE: Before you dispose your flesh wonder
“Was my whole life a class for soul searching”?
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[NO TURNING BACK] [INNOCENCE OF CHILD] [CONTINUING FOR ALL TIME] [THE LASTING ROSE] [COMMANDMENT OF TONGUE] [HOW MANY TIMES] [MIRACLE OF BIRTH] [TEARS OF AN ANGEL] [PEACE OF THE PROMISED LAND] [REALITY WITHIN A DREAM] [AWAITING JUDGMENT] [Power of the Funnel] [GUIDED BY AN ANGEL] [Whispering Words] [MANKIND]
SMELL THE SALTS UPON THE SEAS
VENTURE INTO WATERS OF PAST BRIGADES
SMELL NOT THE SEAS OF PAST HISTORY
BUT ONLY OF THE SALTY REMAINS
LEAVING BEHIND FRESH DROPS FROM THE RAINS
BACK INTO SEAS GALENTLY LEADING
THE RUNNING OF WATERS
BACK UNTO THE GATES
OF THY KINGDOM UNTO ETERNITY
July 1, 1999
LIVE TO LOVE
FEEL THE DYNAMIC MOVEMENTS OF YOUR HEART
TO AND FROM THE WARMEST OF TOUCH
WITHOUT THE WAVES SPLASHING IN
CONFUSING COMFORT FOR MYSTERIOUS LUST
LUST OF WEAK BUT FORGOTTON SIN
FORGETTING TRUE RESPONSIBLITY
BRINGING US ON TO A NEW EARTHY DEASEASE
OUR PATTERN OF LIFE LEFT HERE ON EARTH
FROM EARTH TO THE NEW BEGINNING OF WORLD PEACE
THE PASSING THROUGH TIME
I sit within the quiet sounds
Of my own mind
Meditating into a picture
Where this time within no longer belongs
Passing of an ivory hand made spread
Laying upon an old post bed
A friend within a dog bleating
Into the spread where he lay his head
With the visions of gray skies
Through the panes of a window nearby
Branches of trees peeking around the corner
As though they were trying to hide
No true color in this time involved
Upon a wall a picture of writing
Resembling Our justice for all
As time having its way of passing through
Now to remember
Only through the days Of de ja vu
Hush bye to the days
Now forever gone dry
No longer are the tears
Of those who once got us here
No longer left
Is the remittance of fears
From all the passing souls
Having once passed through here
No longer passing on
The remembrance of goals
Just the changing
Of the goals of the souls
Forgetting but once remembered
All the messages of what was once foretold
In the coming of the days
Of the coming of the Lord
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NO TURNING BACK
Release this kiss
As you can see
There is no more
Of you and me
I’ll say something sweet
And you can dwell
Within your own heat
For the feelings of yourself
In only which you believe
So we will see
What you will be
In the very end
When we meet again
INNOCENCE OF CHILD
Love sweet child
Wide with the innocence of desire
Sweet child’s face
No signs of crime erased
Only the pure white trace
Of your innocence of race
Sweet children of our world
Born innocent and pure
So dear until they begin to hear
And experience with fears
The real sorrow of true tears
To feel is what becomes real
From a child’s mind
To what now life finds
Entering our adulthood
As our child is our child
All our life
Until God takes back
His living sacrifice
CONTINUING FOR ALL TIME
Time standing still
Now at your own will
The face of the clock
Needn’t hands to drop
Skins of silk
Wilting with the age process
Once upon our minds
Now laying our beauty to rest
For all now times
Forever are the skies
Forever are the grounds
Forever will our earth
Continue to remain round
Forever will our souls
Continue to live on
Forever will our time
Continue in our minds
THE LASTING ROSE
The colored rose is red
Until it is dead
While the bud was the only thing
Which didn’t make me bleed
From this miracle of bloom
In the mid December’s gloom
Was finding all the pleasures
Within as I consumed
The last of all it’s energies
Before it became doomed
COMMANDMENT OF TONGUE
Holy holy is thy name
Why do you take God’s name in vain
So quick to blame
Every time you complain
As you shall see
This was written
In thy book
As thou shall not be
For all those who shall see
Are the ones
Who now believe in God the Almighty
See and read as you believe
What our earth is meant to be
So at your end you can be
Now delivered unto thee
HOW MANY TIMES
Do we walk
With open eyes and never talk
Pretending we have no sight
For the people in that fight
HOW MANY TIMES
Do we listen
But we don’t hear
To the sounds of our children’s fears
HOW MANY TIMES
Do we know
And we say no
To the truth of what we really know
By not getting involved to help solve
You’d much rather stay uninvolved
HOW MANY TIMES
Won’t you look in the eyes of a child on the street
To see if they’ve had anything to eat
Or how they’ll get their heat
And to see no shoes on their feet
HOW MANY TIMES
Will you have to hear
Before you let it get to your ear
Is it fear
That makes you not come near
HOW MANY MORE TIMES
Will you allow this crime
Would you be willing to do the time
Wouldn’t you rather walk
And maybe talk
And see what you can be
For all of these
MIRACLE OF BIRTH
Pretty baby blue
Do you know who loves you
I tell you true
You’re like a precious jewel
Precious and few
You’re my little tummy
Dream come true
I can’t wait till you’re complete
For now all you do is sleep
With the warmth of my body heat
Sometimes as I sleep I feel
The kick from your little feet
I see the sheets move
While you’re inside of me
And I still can’t believe
You know when it’s your time
To be free and release
Yourself from within me
As I pray for your good health
And how I felt as I
Watched you come out
I wanted to shout for the joy
I felt at the beautiful sight
Of my new baby boy
TEARS OF AN ANGEL
These clouds of wisdom
Sit above me
While up in a mountain high
I’m watching my angel cry
with these tears
Rolling down from upon her eyes
With dark shadows of sorrow
Rolling through the skies
I needn’t ask why
I know I didn’t really try
Now it’s my turn
As I now sit I cry
PEACE OF THE PROMISED LAND
Oh sweet face of a lamb
Are you in our promised land
With mountains of green
And waterfalls with the warmth of steam
Oh promised land
Of beauty and rest
Resting with only
The souls of the best
Oh sweet place of peace
My soul’s now released
No longer are the temptations of disease
Only the longing of being upon my knees
Oh sweet sweet Jesus
Lord of God
Your place of peace
Has delivered me home
REALITY WITHIN A DREAM
Angel whispers within my dreams
Visions of surrender
To the roads that followed me
Left only with this peace
Upon a cluster of flowering bloom
In a dream world
Where everything now seems misunderstood
Awakening from within my dreams
My eyes travel to where
I’m suddenly aware
Of the clock that ticks
With wasted time continuing to slip
Slipping deeper and deeper
Into each day into the days
Slipping into my yesterdays
For this life lived within a haze
Now to a new beginning of my childish ways
As I know my life now
Is just the starting to begin
For all of the beauty I just learned within
Sins of the world
Sit in fear
As they did hear
Judgment day is coming near
What will they hear
As they are crying tears
For the souls they hurt
Power of the Funnel
These clouds above are blue and gray
Swiftly moving along their way
I must admit they’ll have their way.
As the darkness sets in, the thunder begins
The people take shelter to a place within.
Some find peace and some find fear
And others’ eyes fill with tears
As funnels touch down
And wipe it clean
Very little is left in between
As the clouds clear their way
It’s now another day
A new beginning for many strays
There is no longer yesterdays
So who’s to know and who’s to say
If you weren’t even there that day
So no one can see the loss for me
Or any of my memories
GUIDED BY AN ANGEL
Pressed so lightly yet held so tight
In the arms of an angel
Guiding me through the star’s light
Showing the beauty of the darkest of night
Secure am I sure I didn’t die
With the whispers of reasons why
Flying high with these wings
Of my angel by my side
To guide and help me see
All the beauty of how life should be
By not pretending our life expectancy
Is just a mishappening
But a miracle of birth with self worth
To make things right
From the beginning to the end
Of our own eternal flight
Do angels sing
Do baby angels swing
Do they ever do any fun things
When they spread their wings
Or do they just stay up high
Looking down from the sky
Hoping to hear you call
Before you fall
To help you stand tall
Is there one to my left
Or one to my right
Or are they always just in the light
In hopes that we heard
To give with your heart
So we do our part
And give of yourself
And a little of your wealth
It goes a long way
Helping someone else along their way
So what is this all about
All of the angels all about
So have no fear
They’re here to shelter you
In all you do
To bring forth
What you heard
From all the words
So spread these words
To all you know
Who believe in thy soul
Why this story’s really told
So we know
The angels are here
Without any fear
Just the sounds of the whisper in your ear
(I have chosen to post this poem by Patti AS IS!! she was inspired and began writing withput even knowing why!! YOU KNOW WHY! Don’t You! GREAT PATTI!!!!?),
RECEIVED ALL THE RICHES OF THE WORLD
THE SHELTER OF THE WORLD
BRINGING ABOUT THEIR COMFORTS AND THEIR WEALTH
WHY DOES MAN TAKE SO FOR GRANTED
WITH THY SELVES OF LOYALTY AND TRUST
IT IS WRITTEN IN THE BOOK OF GOD THY FATHER
HEAVEN AND EARTH
WHO THY NOT OBEY ME
IN THE NAME OF THY GOD
OH HOLY SPIRIT PROTECT THY SOUL
AND LEAD THY WAY AS I HAVE SINNED
FORGIVE ME AND ALL THY FELLOW MAN
AS THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO
oh holy holy is thy name
bring down thy forth
his holy son to wash away the sins of the world
begin the cleansing of the world as it is stated in the
book of revelation
cast away the sins of the world and bring down the souls un to
David who wrote in the scripture of
DAVID UNTO HIM THE BEGINNING OF THE END OF PAIN AND SUFFERING UNTO
OH LORD …
(as is… which leads us to believe MORE will be forthcoming!!!.. Praise GOD!)
I’ve seen you before,
You are no stranger.
I’ve see you before,
In those pictures.
You used to cradle me,
You have always loved me.
I remember you,
As if it were yesterday.
You look so peaceful today
How are you?
Is this new home of yours comfy?
I will miss you.
Your turning so pale now
Why won’t you speak to me
I cannot hear your voice
Oh I forgot
You are not here, are you?
I wish you could come back to me,
I wish you were not gone
You meant so much to me
I can not bear the suffering
How could they do this to you
Even your own Father.
You gave your life for me
How could I ever repay you
I know you are never far
But will I ever see you again?
How will I know
If what I do is right
Seen only in the light
The twinkle barely bright
Falling ever so light
Leaving its unmarked trace
A tear drop falls
His eyes raised to the heavens
So serene and calm
But one tear drop
Rest upon his cheek
For the death he has received
For the people he has saved
His Only Son
That one special day.
The grass seemed greener.
The birds chirped blissfully.
The day you were born.
The stars above twinkled with joy.
The people were giving out cheers.
The animals remained peaceful and serene.
The day you were born.
The people gathered far and near.
They heard your first cry.
They watched your mother Mary.
The day you were born.
Gifts of wealth and love were present.
So was your one true Father.
The day you were born.
His only Son.
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The Dad That I Once Had
I hate you.
No, I wish that were true.
I am just afraid
I’ll turn out just like you.
Trying to wipe you away
From the thoughts in my head,
It’s almost as if you are dead.
It has been ten years,
Bottled up fears,
Washed up tears.
A lonely child
still resides inside,
Still wants to hide.
Trying to forget,
The pain it’s met.
“Innocent child” I never got to be,
No memories of being “care-free”.
Witnessed the unleashing of a monster,
Slowly before my eyes,
Funny, I don’t remember being surprised.
I’d like to think that I am now grown,
The pain I have carried not being shown.
I don’t feel that I miss you,
But how can that be?
You will forever be apart of me.
So selfish, you chose that bottle over us,
Gave up your life, your children, your wife.
You gave up your rights my “dearest dad”
I am angry, yes,
But more so sad.
I don’t believe you will ever realize
The wonderful life you could have had.
The Lifestyle That “Drug” Me Down
Swallowed it down.
Anticipated the night ahead;
Afraid I’d wind up dead.
Escaping the world to my own little place…
Forgetting my problems,
For a little while.
Scared, I am so scared.
I hate this.
I don’t even like this feeling…
But I don’t want to feel anything else.
Or so they seem.
Almost like a dream.
I want to wake up
When will this be over?
Let go of me!
Please set me free…
I promise I won’t come back,
If you let me escape
I The Baby
Dad’s a sinner
Mom’s a saint
Big brother stays out way too late
Eldest sister on her own
I the baby, all alone.
Dad’s a drunk
Mom gives hugs
Big brother is now hooked on drugs
Eldest sister hard as rock
I, the baby, still in shock.
Dad is gone
Mom is strong
Big brother rights all his wrongs.
Eldest sister heads up high
I, the baby, sit and cry.
Happily Ever After
Can you feel this smile?
It’s been here for awhile.
I just thought you that would like to know,
I take it everywhere I go.
Can you hear my laughter?
I feel happily ever after.
I just thought that you would like to know,
I take it everywhere I go.
Can you see the twinkle in my eyes?
They are filled with wonder and surprise.
I just thought that you would like to know,
I take it everywhere I go.
Can you see these feelings show?
Can you feel them overflow?
Can you hear my laughter grow?
Well, I just thought you would like to know,
It’s because I take YOU everywhere I go.
I am more than just another face
I am only trying to find my place.
You may think I am different or weird,
I used to care when you pointed and jeered.
I didn’t know what to say or do
I just knew that I wanted to be like you.
See, I was self-conscience and young
But I climbed that ladder rung by rung.
And now I am just me
And there is no one else I would rather be.
I would hate to be like you
To myself I must be true.
So when you stare
I do not care
You see who you want to see-
For you do not know who I am on the inside
You do not know what it’s like being me
Your eyes…blue as ice-
they seem to stare right through me.
Peering into my soul?
Reading my thoughts?
Do you see all that I have hiding there?
I’m nervous, tongue tied.
Can’t think of a word to say.
Hopefully you won’t notice,
But do you notice me at all?
Your hair, it changes colors
Like fallen leaves from trees.
I don’t even know you.
What makes you happy? Sad?
I think it would take a lifetime
To figure you out.
You are seem so deep
Like a river.
But only if you could put a crack
in this dam,
And form a stream into my heart.
Sometimes I wish you could read my thoughts,
So that you could learn they are of you.
What would you do?
Turn away shyly or embrace them?
I may never know.
Twist Of Fate
So tell me, what would I do without you?
Now the grass is green and the sky is blue.
You have entered my life
and now it has changed
It’s been turned around and rearranged.
From bad to good in a giant leap
Forever and ever
You I will keep.
I wish I knew how long this would last
For it is never to be the way it was in the past.
My love for you is oh so strong
With love this great we can’t go wrong.
You are the one that I desire
It was you who set my heart on fire.
Wonderfulness is what I feel
If you broke my heart
It would not heal.
You are there for me with open arms
A world free of hurt, of hatred and harm.
These words will stay forever true
So tell me, what would I do without you?
Written by: Laura R.
Email : A5ftFreak@aol.com
A short story by Laura R.
“Ahh! Tara screamed out loud as she leapt from her bed in a cold sweat..
“Tara! What’s the matter?” Jen, Tara’s younger sister asked with alarm. “Oh, I
had the most horrible dream!” Tara exclaimed. “I was a frog! But worst of all
I was Darren Andrew’s pet frog!”
We both knew who Darren Andrew’s was. The stereo-typical “geek” in our
high school. You know the one.. glasses, braces, talks kinda funny. “Eww!
That’s so gross!” Jen squealed, “Darren Andrew’s! What a nerd!”
“Forget Darren!” Tara said disgusted, “I was an ugly green toad!” Tara
strolled towards her full length mirror. As she stood in front of it, she
brushed her long silky blonde hair. “I wonder why I would dream that I was a
frog? I am the most beautiful girl in our entire school! I think people should
bow before me when I speak. Have you ever seen anyone as beautiful as me?”
Tara batted her long eyelashes at her sister. “Sure I have” Jen answered. “But
I have yet to meet someone as stuck up as you are!” Rolling her eyes, Tara
walked out of the room. “You’re just jealous” she mumbled.
Later that day, while in school, Tara sat at the lunch table daydreaming.
“Hey Tara, snap out of it!” Tara’s best friend Julie stood next to the table
snapping her finger’s profusely. Julie and Tara were the exact opposite of
one another. Julie was short, curly brown hair framing her chubby face. Her
beady black eyes could bore a hole right through your skull. While Tara was
tall, thin, with long honey blonde hair that framed her high cheekbones. Eyes
were as blue as the sky. Julie and Tara had been friends since grade school.
Tara liked having Julie around. She would do homework assignments for her,
call guys on the phone for her, and best of all, Julie’s lack of good looks
made Tara feel ten times prettier. Tara felt as though she was doing Julie a
favor by being her friend. Julie on the other hand, the good natured person
that she is, just tried to see the best in Tara. Although little by little,
all of the nice qualities she had found in Tara were beginning to fade.
“Snap of it, Tara!” Julie snapped her finger’s again. “Would you quit it,
Julie!” Tara shouted. “I heard you the first time!” “Sorry” Julie whispered as
she sat down beside her friend. “So,” Julie smiled, “are you going to Brian
Johnson’s Halloween party?” “Of course!” Tara exclaimed as she gazed across
the crowded cafeteria at Brian. Brian was the captain of their high school
football team, and Tara had her eye on him since the beginning of the year..
She knew she could have him if she wanted him, so she figured that she would
make him wait.
“So, what are you going as?” Julie asked anxiously. “Why, Julie, dear, a
beautiful princess of course! You know, I think I was definitely a princess in
a past life. Just look at me!” Tara said as she swung her hair from side to
side. “Right, anyway, I was thinking of going as a wicked witch”, Julie smiled
slyly. “I’ll be able to put a spell on everyone” “Right Julie, putting spells
on us? Tell me another one!” Tara waved her friend away. “Please!” “Oh, I
won’t put one on you Tara!” Julie laughed. “Gee thanks, Julie. Why don’t you
put a spell on Brian? Make him follow me all over the school!” Tara said.. “Oh
I forgot, he already does that!” “No, Tara, here comes the guy that already
does that.” Julie said as her eyes shifted across the room.
“Ugh, Darren Andrew’s!” Tara whined. “I wish he would just leave me alone!”
“He’s a nice guy Tara, you shouldn’t be so hard on him, Julie said quietly.
“Hello ladies!” Julie was cut off as Darren walked up to their table.
“Going to the Halloween party tonight, Tara?” Darren asked smiling from ear to
ear. “Not if you’re going to be there.” Tara sneered as Darren’s smile slowly
faded. “He’s such a nerd!” Tara scoffed as Darren slipped into the shadows.
“You’re so mean Tara!” Julie scolded. “So, then don’t be my friend anymore”
Tara laughed. Julie laughed back, but deep inside she was thinking that exact
“You look great dear” Tara’s mother exclaimed as Tara got herself ready to
leave for the party. “I know mother, I will have the best costume there!” Tara
checked herself in the mirror one last time. She was extremely proud of the
costume she had bought. “I’m sure to have Brian following me all over the
party tonight.” Tara said to herself.
“Tara strutted around the party. She said her “hello’s” here and there,
stopped every once in a while to laugh at an attractive boy’s stupid jokes.
She stopped to talk to the senior cheerleaders. They seemed to really like
her. They were, of course, the most popular girls in school. While talking to
them, Tara felt a tap on her back. Julie stood behind her, cackling. “Why,
hello my pretty!” Julie said in a witch like voice. The senior cheerleaders
gave Julie an annoyed look and turned away. “Julie!” Tara sneered. “Go away!
I’m trying to become friends with these girls! I can become really popular
with these girls around.” Julie’s eyes began to tear up. Her feelings were
hurt. She began to get angry. She was so sick of Tara. Tara, Tara, Tara!. All
Tara cared about was herself! “I don’t need you Tara! You were never really my
friend. I’m going to put a horrible spell on you! Julie cried out. “Please
Julie! Grow up, would you?” You are so childish!” Tara smirked. “Now go away,
you are cramping my style!” Julie stared at Tara so hard that her eyes burned.
Then she turned and walked away. Never looking back.
Tara walked around the party some more. She hadn’t seen Brian all night.
She wasn’t sure what costume he had worn. Once again she felt a tap on her
back. “Julie! What do you want?” Tara turned around and was startled to see a
googly eyed frog mask in front of her. She burst out laughing, thinking of her
dream from the night before.
“Kiss me, my beautiful princess, and I will turn into your handsome prince”
, came from the tiny opening in the frog’s mask. Assuming that it was Brian,
Tara giggled, closed her eyes, and leaned forward waiting. After he kissed
her, Tara opened her eyes and stood in horror as she stared at Darren Andrews
standing face to face with her, holding the frog mask in his right hand.
“Didn’t realize that you were already taken” came a voice from behind her.
Tara turned around to see Brian. A look of disappointment spread over his
face. “Brian..it’s not what you thi-” Tara started to tell him, but he had
already begun to walk away. She squeezed her eyes shut and before she had a
chance to get angry she was startled by the sound of an alarm.
As she opened her eyes, she sighed with relief. “The alarm clock! She
realized, “It was all just a terrible dream!” She opened her eyes wider and
looked around the room. “Wait a minute. where am I?” Tara asked herself as she
looked at her surroundings. In the distance she could see Darren Andrews
rolling out of bed. “What in the world?” Tara asked herself. “How did I get
here?” she questioned, as Darren began to walk towards her. “Tara! My pet! I
had a dream about you last night!” You are the most beautiful creature in the
world!” Tara was at a loss for words. Confused she turned and caught a glimpse
of her reflection in the glass that she noticed was surrounding her. Starring
back at her was a wide eyed, wart ridden toad. Frozen in horror, Tara opened
her mouth and prepared to let out a curdling scream. But of course, all that
came from her mouth was a loud “croak”.
|All Poetry Copyright Laura R. 1998/99 All Rights Reserved
Name : Jeffrey L. Yabut
Pen Name : Je ‘ free
Email : Jeffrey_Yabut@sealand.com
These works Copyright 98/99 Jeffrey L. Yabut
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Like a young seed thirsting for rain,
I want to grow, and feel the same
In your vast world where love is born,
And good-bye is the painful thorn
Like flowers open their petals,
I embrace the sun’s bright signals
In your fields of fresh aroma,
Poison is the ultimate karma
Cultivate, and I’ll blossom on earth
Shower your love, and I’ll find my worth
For I am your vine, you are my wall
Cling on as we learn to rise and fall
Let me survive in this Cosmic Garden…
Of wild orchids & dangers
Of wild beasts & strangers
I will survive in this Cosmic Garden…
Our own blessing, our own curse
Our shelter, our universe
…Home sweet, Cosmic Garden…
Midnight under the sheltering skies
Wish on a star for I’m paralyzed
You’ve frozen this heart, broken these wings
I need to learn again what freedom brings
Prisoner in the realm of emptiness
Breakout from this void land of darkness
Shadows of past can’t ruin the future
Spread my wings again just like a vulture
Ride the chilling breeze, once more I dare
Hunt for love begins somewhere out there
Beauty of forgiveness is my gain
Farewell, my unnecessary pain
Soar, Black Crow, Soar…
Search for happiness that once was yours
Entirety of heavens is all yours
Soar, White Dove, Soar…
View the world through different set of eyes
Freedom gives you the power to rise
…Fly high, Soar high…
|A BRAND NEW SPARKLE/SUPERNOVA
I was blinded by the brilliance of fame
Like a moth, I got burnt from its scorching flame
So it’s quite senseless to envy my name
Unselfishly, I trade-off my title
For a burst of light with a brighter twinkle
It’s so strange how the heart can be so fickle
Stardom is but a short-lived shimmering
Behind the glimmer, a worthless nothing
‘Til the bliss of love struck me like lightning
The fading spotlight has been a riddle
On the verge of darkness, stuck in the middle
‘Til you came blazing like a miracle
There’s a new found light, a Brand New Sparkle
It’s shining from the very heart of me
There’s a brighter light, a Brand New Sparkle
I’ll emit this light for the world to see
…That love is all we need…
MY RIVER NILE
” Cleanse me … Baptize me … “
Cleopatra was so thirsty as this
When she prayed for Egypt’s ultimate bliss
The source of life which travels miles
Come wash my pain, oh River Nile
Cleopatra desired, and yearned the same
As the towns of Egypt just burnt like flame
Burnt for the cause of joy & smile
Come cleanse my wounds, oh River Nile
How I need more when you’re pouring lean
How I want more when you’re rushing mean
How I plunge into your crystal flow
How I follow where the whirlwinds blow
River Nile, My River Nile…
Your mystic keeps me dreaming
Your wonder fills my longing
River Nile, My River Nile…
Your power keeps me floating
Your healing ends my bleeding
…Like a desert baptized by the sky,
Love overflows in me, My River Nile…
I hear the footsteps of a broken child –
A haunting past that echoes through this forest
Trying to escape, searching in the moonlit night
But I lose my way home in this world of madness
As the wild rivers sweep me away
As the deep dangers drown me away
In a corner of darkness, you hide your fears –
Your tortured mind, and your chilling hands
The heart shall learn that anxiety disappears –
Once you dare to love and embrace the chance
How can you live holding on to pain?
How can you stand alone in the rain?
Rescue me / I’ll protect you
Cover me / I’ll save you
Rescue each other –
Come take the challenge to catch my fall
You know I’ll be there for you when you call
Rescue me / I’ll comfort you
Shelter me / I’ll love you
Rescue each other –
From the evil forces of nature
Let the sky promise a brighter future
“Love strikes stronger than an earthquake –
more powerful than a thunderstorm
This is the death of our heartache –
A new leaf unfolds, a new love’s born. “
Oh Babylonians, avert from avarice !
How dare you drink from the sacred chalice
When you’re a renegade of your religion
Blinded yourselves to see tribulation
Practice what you preach, don’t be evasive
Narcissism can be so oppressive
In the absence of reciprocity –
prevails the corruption of monarchy
Oh Babylonians, attain vindication !
How can you neglect this bone of contention –
When you victimize them of your hit and run ?
Too much wealth is dangerous like atom bomb
Practice giving, forget about bigotry
Selfishness lets you live in savagery
There’s less repentance, and more reluctance
Your heart’s the fulcrum to this imbalance
” He who swells in prosperity will shrink in adversity. “
Dark cumulus clouds transforming –
in corners of my mind they dig
Vision of a blinding lightning
Last leaf falls from a burning twig
Where flock of black birds are chasing –
the cold breeze of the eastern winds
Your face is the star reflecting –
on these crystal waters that rinse –
Rinse, cleanse my back for I’ve carried –
through sands of time, a world of sins
Feet beneath the earth were buried
I should have followed Your footprints
Why are my guilty hands chilling –
as wolves cry to the crescent moon ?
The far horizon’s fast-changing
Another comet falls by dawn
” Living in this corrupted universe,
evil appears in varied forms – what a curse !
My soul seeks for mercy, life has gone worse
The blood of Your salvation I do thirst “
TRAVERSE : INTO THE FUTURE
What I say now may be elementary –
once man unravels time and its mystery
We travel to the past by memory
Imagination’s what our future will be
Delve in the theories of the human minds
It’s heaven or hell or in between those lines
Push to one direction, a radical turn
We see this paradox a great concern
We have explored it almost endlessly –
How we can change the course of history
Kaleidoscopic the world seems to be
We need a mechanism to set us free
Traverse the unreached boundaries …
where there’s no war, poverty, and pollution
Traverse the possibilities …
where there’s no environmental devastation
Traverse the unknown energy …
where there’s a parallel dimension disguised
Traverse levels of this mystery …